Cold Kindness (Pre Chapter) Part I

News Release: it was a disruptive time betweenforward as she found the room and opened the
the winter of 1959, throughout 1960, and thedoor, smiled at Adam as she laid her suitcase on
spring of 1961. Elvis Presley was in the Army, inthe bed, as if to say, the adventure of the
West Germany; Antarctica was agreed by theweekend is about to start, let's not draw back
12-nations who had claims on the continent, tofrom each other.
use it wisely, and only for scientific reasons, no[The Ski Lift] "We must have climbed a mile?" said
nuclear testing. Then the 1960-Olympics started inAdam, stopping to rest by a farmyard fence;
Rome. It was the year Nikita Khrushchev bangedtwo cows came up to the wooden fence, with
his shoe at the United Nations on his desk; andtwo big bells tied around their necks, Adam was
Castro addressed the United Nations as well,leaning against the fence.
asking for support with Cuba's "struggle" against"How charming," commented Adam, satirically? He
the United States. The Soviet Union put the firstwalked up the path a little further, toward the
man in space, Yuri Gagarin; Pablo Picasso, at agefarmyard; two little boys came running down the
79 marries his model, Jacqueline Rogue, 35-yearspath towards him, and two cows followed along
old, 42-years his junior...and the author of, "Coldside them, along the other side of the fence. It
Kindness," had his first poetry published in his Highwas as if one boy ran after the other, and the
School newspaper journalism class; and within ninecows just followed. They were twins.
years, he would be in West Germany."Guten Morgen" said one of the two blond haired
Towers and Rain Dropsboys, the one by the name of Cody.
Two hearts never seem to beatthe same,Said Carmen with a perfect pitch to her voice, as
andtwo minds never dream alikewe are towersif it was a soft flute playing (wanting to know
left alone it seemsfighting for our lives.where is the ski lift): "Wo ist...der Schilift?"
If only the sunwould remain out, meltthe iceSaid Cody with an impetuous smile, "Er ist...gehen
away,then we could live above the cloudsandSie... geradeaus... (go straight ahead)."
watch it rain all day.Carmen looked straight in back of her, where the
We are but drops of rainyou know...evaporating, inboy was pointing: ah, she could see it now.
the sun--most people know how to mix, it"Gandige Frau..." said the boy, "wie heissen sie?"
seemswhile others flow as one."Carmen," she said, was her name, to the boy.
--dlsilukAnd she explained that Adam was her American
Inside the Dieburg Towerfriend.
Introductory Chapter"Aha..." said the boy with a bright smile again.
Winter in GarmischThen with slow and broken English, the boy
[1959]commented, "He's...my cow sir, isn't...he big?" Adam
She stopped the car on the road, it was full of icelooked at them, "H...mmm, they are big and
and snow, the road leading into Garmisch that is,healthy looking cows are they not?" Possibly it
Garmisch, Germany; Carmen's right forearmwas a statement-question, but the boys both
resting on Adam's arm for a moment; in thelooked up and understood most of what was
distance ascending into the sky were the skisaid; then they looked at each other, and were
slopes. The wind was whistling around the carindifferent to it, as if they were holding back a
windows and the pine trees were swaying, it waslaugh.
a chilly winter's morning. The mountain pass hadBoth boys now looking at Adam, Cody said in
to be made by car or bus; no trains could make itEnglish, "My name is Cody, and he's my brother
through the pass only around the mountain, andShawn, we live there (pointing to the house up
within a certain distance of the areas ski resort.the path)."
She stopped the car, rested the motor, thereCarmen thanked the boys in German, saying:
was a lodge behind them, about a mile back down"Danke," as the two boys stooped under the
the road; and just beyond the pass ahead offence and ran towards the cows at which time
them was the village (or town-let), calledthe cows started to run, and then all of a sudden
Garmisch, a ski region, a wintry haven for all ofthe cows stopped turned to them (the cows,
Europe; and a simple old tourist village the rest ofstopping and turning about) the boys jump back
the year.and laughed.
Everything was shinny white, in the frostedSaid Carmen to Adam, "They are quite interested
weathered morning sunbeams; so much so, itin Americans I think, they took a shine to you
was almost blinding you could say; thought AdamAdam," Adam didn't say nothing; it was more of a
staring with his sunglasses on. Adam, he wasstatement he thought, than a question.
Carmen's American boyfriend. He was discharged"Nice boys, cute blond hair, just like little Germans.
from the American Military Armed Forces inAnyhow, do you mean we got to walk all that
Europe, about a year earlier, and had gotten a jobway over there, I mean we've been walking for
as a manager at the local Babenhausen Militarytwo hours, I think, or is it three [?]" He looked at
PX--and for the most part, he seemed to braveCarmen, she didn't say a ward, I suppose nothing
the elements of this trip without much difficulty.to say, then finished his thoughts, "It's just a little
Carmen looked at him, a brief smile, a comfortingways now." Having said that, they started to
intake of air, and drove forward through the pass.transverse over to the area the boys had pointed
"Is this Garmisch?" asked Adam with a vibranttowards.
blow to his diaphragm, trying to absorb its wintryThen she got thinking: perhaps she was a ting cold
wonderland beauty.hearted, she should ask how he is doing, and
"Yes, yes, but it's not quite the way I rememberasked, "How are you doing Adam?"
it to be, it was long ago you know when I was"I suppose all right, I'm a bit fatigued, I mean, I
last here."mean, I only rested, not slept but an hour at the
They now had driven closer to the village wherehotel. And this long walk, and the long ride up
they both could get a better view of the wholehere, don't you German-Jews ever get tired?"
countryside, a breathtaking panorama--; for aShe smiled; not saying a word, figuring it was a
moment, a fairytale moment you might say,rhetorical question at best.
Adam was taken back, a bit awe struck from itsAdam, at the present, took off his jacket, he had
beauty; then as they drove a little further theya sweater under that, and a wool-shirt to boot,
were in the village itself; a little quaint Bavarianand a cotton undershirt under all that, and as a
Village by the Alps.result, he was starting to overheat.
"The hotel is farther down," Carmen instructed.Now, noticing Adam quite exhausted, Carmen
Adam looked over his shoulder, out of the back(shaking her head) stopped, said with a humbling
window, it was a long ride from Dieburg and thevoice, "You can wait here, I'll go check and see if
incline was steep and slippery, he was adjusting.we can ski."
"Happy to have made it up here in one piece;" heAdam [brooding] "O--No--no, I came all this way
commented.here, walked all this distance, no need to stop and
Carmen burped out "We'll have to cross this smallrest a few hundred yards from the site now." It
bridge ahead of us," turn to look at Adam'swas more like a quarter mile, but the mannish
expression, then added "...the hotel is right beyondpart of him--the Id was the driving force, although
that (pointing straight ahead)." Adam noticed anot destructive at this point, and it was a little ego
stream went under the bridge she was pointinginvolved, that is, which got its demand from the
at, and all the way (seemingly) through the villageId, I suppose, thus, he felt in control; in any case,
up to some farm pastures towards thehe--the mannish part of him was not going to
mountains.allow the female species to have the upper hand.
Said Carmen hesitantly, but with pride, "This is--Said Carmen to the husky, beer bellied man in
lovely country in the spring as well as summer:the green ski-lift hut, sitting down operating some
streams and forests all mesh together and givegears, occasionally looking through a window in
out many shades of green; and as you can see,front of him, and Carmen to his side, "Wo kann
most of the houses still have that old Bavarianich eine Fahrkarte kaufen? (Where can I buy a
architecture."ticket?)"
"I see," said Adam."...Hier Schatzi!" (here darling) said the burly
"Across the bridge is the hotel," commentedGerman, watching several ski-lifts going higher and
Carmen.higher up the mountain, threw the sparse wooded
"And where exactly is the skiing area?" Althougharea. "Zwei..." (he said, implying she needed two
in Adam's brain, the whole area could betickets, as he looked, or tried to look, deep into
considered, for it was all mountainous.her bottomless and blue beautiful eyes; Adam
"There, over by the big hill, mountain I mean, youcatching his gaze, the German paying Adam no
can't see it fully, got to get a little closer, but it'sheed.
over a mile run down those smaller slopesCarmen responded in German: "Bitte...vielen dank"
alongside, there are several you know. We'll be(please, thank you much).
able to see it closer later; the mountains all kind ofCarmen was catching her breath, said to Adam in
blend together, as you can see."a low tone, "Three Marks for a ride, three each,
As Carmen pulled up to the hotel, Adam cleanedthat's close to a dollar!"
his sunglasses a bit. At times, things were so"Swell," said Adam [suddenly], "let's go for a ride."
bright, it was blinding, therefore, he rubbed his"Guten Tag," said the man--he now pointed to the
eyes, shut them for a moment. The snow wasski-lift they were to go on.
heaped up several feet high along side the hotel.Adam saying in English, as if to impress Carmen in
Carmen parked the car. This was their first tripthe fact he understood a little German, and very
together; they had only known each other goinglittle, "And good day to your sir...!"
on a month."Are you able to ski?" asked Carmen, realizing
"There's no bellboy here," said Carmen.how exhausted she was, and he seemed even
"I see the ski-lift now," the young man said,more so.
tucking in his shirt as he got out of the car,"We shall see once we get to the top." I think he
grabbing the two suitcases in the backseat.was thinking if she would, he could, but if she
"Perhaps we can ski this afternoon," Carmengave a little hint she was tired--well, I suppose he
explained, walking into the hotel. "The weather iscould go along with anything to get a long rest
perfect for it," it being twenty-five degrees out.back at the hotel; anyhow, that was his answer.
"How many folks are skiing do you think?" heHe sat back tight against the ski-lift as it ascended
asked, pointing now at the ski lift, way in theup the mountain; Carmen by his side, the seat
distance, or where he thought it should be,was made of wood, the rest was made out of
although a configuration, shadow of one wassteel. It was all painted green, like the woods
noticeable.around them; under him were some twenty feet
"Perhaps (she paused to look about, think beforeof air, and accumulating more the higher they
saying another word)...conceivably about onewent of course. Adam gripped his hands tight
fourth of the normal folks that would normallyonto the sidebars of the lift attached to the seat.
come on a holiday or weekend, you know today'sBeing somewhat fatigued, his eyes started to
only Thursday, we got a few days before theclose. Carmen noticed that; she nudged him to
rush starts."wakeup: reinforcing the fact he needed to hang
"Great, great, I don't like its crowded now, or willonto the side of the seat's side-bar.
be, in particular.""To ski down this mile run is nothing," said
"Do you wish to ski as soon as possible?" sheCarmen, "if you are not tired that is; but if you
asked.are--tired like me or more so, you--you could
"Depends, ah, depends on what we have to dopossibly break a leg." She was a much better
now I suppose!" he said aloud not realizing he wasskier than he, and Adam knew it, and so hearing
being overly loud; overcompensating for beingthat, he took in a deep breath of air and thought
tired I'd expect. She did a double-take on himon what she had just said a moment ago. On the
when his voice had exceeded her calm zone.other hand, Carmen knew that men seldom
"Yes, yes, I hear you...!" the young woman said.listened to women when they sounded
"But we should eat a fine, if not resilient mealcompetitive, or she felt they could outdo them,
first, rest a bit, and go later on towards earlyso she added: "I'm more tired than I had
afternoon--we'll be fresher and not so...(shepreviously thought," and although she was tired,
hesitated, lost her thoughts, said), you know, notshe could have skied a few hours more without
so loud please."much effort. But for the most part, this was the
"I've forgotten I'm hungry, and I didn't mean tobest she could do with a warning for him, in
be so sharp, I suppose I'm just ornery from beingallowing an escape path for his ego; thus, let him
tired, it does that to me some times," said Adam.do as he pleased with this kindest escape clause,
[Inside the hotel] "Guten Morgan," a voice saidshe had done her best to create.
behind a counter, noticing Adam as an American"Yes, yes, I understand," he said with eyelids half
he changed his language to English: "My name isopen.
Koln, do..." before he could finish his statement"Yes, I see you do," commented Carmen. At the
Carmen interrupted.same time Adam started tapping with his fingers
"I am Carmen Schmidt; you should have ouron the steel bar next to him.
reservation here?"Said he, "How do I determine if I'm too tired or
"A moment...bitte...please (he corrected himselfnot, or how have you determined you might
back to English)," Koln said as he thumbed throughbe...?"
some reservation cards: 'hmmm,' came from hisCarmen [interrupting] "You are not deaf, are
mouth.you?"
"Ya... (a pause) Ms Carmen R. Schmidt, and...dd,"No," said Adam wiping his brow.
of-course--your guest..." (He said with a reluctant"Well, I'm telling trying to tell you we both
voice, or so it seemed).are--tired, but if you're not going to listen we'll
"Yes, that's me," replied Carmen.both break a leg together--go ahead, I'll risk it
"Kabine sieben," said the desk clerk [Room seven],also, otherwise we can turn about and go back to
adding in English, "...second floor, I see you'll bethe hotel; I mean we got three, or is it, two days
here just three days..."Es ist schon" [fine], "...it's[?] anyhow, we got more than enough time to go
good skiing weather," he smiled and gave her theskiing, it's no big deal, as far as I feel, we do not
key, trying to readjust his earlier tentative sneer.have to push ourselves beyond what we know is
Adam knew many German's knew English, or atnot safe"; having said that, they both got off at
least conversational English, he himself knew athe next stop and jumped on the returning ski-lift
little German, enough to get a meal, a beer andand back to the hotel, not even stopping to
an occasional date. And both Germans andwarm-up.
Americans tried to use what little they knew;--When they got back to the hotel, they sat at a
either out of respect, or simply for thetable, the bar area was behind them with stools
recognition of knowing it.and a few guests lounging about, but practically
"Danke," said Carmen as they left the counterthe whole place was empty--for the most part,
area, heading toward the main lobby, down theperhaps four or five other people were present.
hall, Adam saying: "Tschus"[by]; then askedThey stayed for a few hours talking and drinking.
Carmen: "What is the 'R' for?"A man and his ten year old boy were both
"I told you I was a German-Jew, it's my father'splaying violins with German, Bavarian traditional
last name, Rosenbaum, is that a problem?" shefestive cloths on.
said with a higher defensive voice.As the waiter came up to take their order
"No, no-oo... (a pause) not at all; what's a Jew gotCarmen quickly took charge to order, "Ich
to do with anything anyhow? I mean, I'mmoechte zwei Stueck Brot, ein Kruegel Bier, und
Russian-Irishman, American--big deal."ein Glas Wein...danke.
She didn't look his way, just asserted herself